There are some days when you just hate it…

I was on my way to the office, just like any other day. But there are times when things don't go my way. Things got out of hand.

First on the list was the rain that poured so hard since very early this morning. I waited for the rain to stop, or at least slow down even for a bit. It did slow down, at about 7:30am.

Next stop would be the transportation. No good jeepney showed up at that time!!! Some would show up but wouldn't take passengers, while others would not take us to our proper destination. And I got on the latter, what a pain. What added up to the misery is the fact that we got stuck up in a 20-minute traffic that didn't make any sense, because we would not be taken to our proper destination, only to another jeepney stop. 

There we were taken to another jeepney stop, where more were waiting hopelessly for a ride. It was about 5 minutes to 8am when jeepneys showed up, either full of passengers or wouldn't take any. That added to the mental torture I was starting to experience. Even when I was able to get to a jeepney, we had to endure additional traffic and re-routes. Not to mention the mental torment I was in.

After this, I am going to another torment, one that would either make me stay at home (because of suspension) or hopefully listen to this explanation.

Any way.. I am hoping to get a positive response out of it.
 

The trouble with working on internet cafes…

[this post is originally from http://acemtrace.i.ph/blogs/acemcsharp/, just had to move it here] 

You might wanna ask, why work in internet cafe’s???

Sure the ambience is annoying, with so many chatters and players cursing around while tapping on those keyboards and doing their stuff, sometimes thinking as if they are the only clients in the cafe. Other players waiting for their turn would be moving around trying to intimidate other players. Chatters would laugh at their fellow chatters on line. Basically the most basic of all internet cafe, those with small spaces and whose income rely on players, would be a mess.

But why bother working there? I dont have a PC at home, so I have to work there. I cant use our office’s resources late at night, so I have to work there.

Edit: Had just moved it here.

I am currently studying an implementation of asynchronous sockets in C#. This C# library basically relies on events to be fired to ensure connectivity, at least that’s what I understood so far. I wanted to find a way to make it work like passing the parameters needed without having to call the events. Basically to create the host instances (for both client and server) without having to rely on a service that handles the events. But it seems, as I can see it I makes no other opening than that. I mean, maybe yes, but that would require another class with longer codes. The idea of the .NET would be defeated with that.

Any way, I had to work back on the example again, hope things would be fine. Hope I get it right this time….

And oh, I am in an internet cafe, might as well play NBA Live 2006 for a while, its been long since I havent played this. [And not to brag, but I’m good at this… hehehehehehe]

Edit: I just got my own PC. Now my problem is my internet connection. Just got the reply from Smart telling me I cant use my Siemens S65 as a modem for my PC, yet I see many configurations online as to how they used my phone as a modem. Any ways, hopefully we can get our internet connection in time.

Let Go and Let God…

Let Go and Let God…
I love my life right now…
though I had to "Let Go" of my previous dreams,
I will "Let God" do what He want for that…

The first line was the previous theme for the YFC ILC (or something like that). It had me realize that what had happened before was also part of His plans. Though I had my share of dreams before, but God has His reasons in everything.

How I miss those days… [here I go again…]

I must say…

Sometimes you relive the day when you were part of something when you see that again. In my part, it's YFC.

I feel like wanna jumped with the crowd during praisefests. I feel like wanna shout out when we have worships. I feel like wanna have fun every time we visit other places. There are a lot of other things I wanna do that we had been doing since my time with the YFC.

It's because of the YFC that I got my confidence standing up and talking in front of other people (for long hours, hehehehe). Because of them I got involved with things that makes difference in this world. Because of this I got my shot at being a leader, its ups and downs. Because of them I wanna see the world in a whole new light. Because of them I got to be involved (even for once or twice) in the single most visible proof on what Filipinos had done to change other's lives - the Gawad Kalinga (and I believe this is the only proof of what Filipinos had done to change other's lives, no offense).

Now that I am a father, I wanna make sure my son gets to experience these things. I do hope he will get this chance.

My Senatorial List

Escudero. Pangilinan. Lacson. Trillanes. Montano. Arroyo. Recto. Alan Cayetano. Villar. Roco. Noynoy Aquino.

What I saw one night…

I was just trying to clear my mind that night. I dont know why, but I sometimes have this certain feeling in me to just move away from the world and wander on the road(in simpler terms, space out). I just got from Ngo-hiong Express at that time, on my way back to my boarding house, when I saw this small poster in one corner.

That corner probably is one of the many corners in busy Cebu that wouldn't be easily noticed. One of those corners that people would just pass by. A corner that would be forgotten by passers-by. It was on this corner that a poster was placed.

The posters motif was black, which means it would hardly be noticed at night (since there was no light post at that area). It wasn't big, just an ordinary sized poster. And it read:

Jesus Christ Superstar
Nov. 30, Dec 1, 2, and 3, 2006

A question ran in my mind: Why would something great like this be placed in such a small corner?

How I miss those days…

Sometimes I just wished I could have taken my memories with me. Really, I mean it.

How do I say this one. I am happy with where I am right now. I am now a programmer, a C# programmer to be exact. I am with my gift from God. It's just that I wished I could have carried the oppurtunity of being a CFC-YFC leader here.

I still crave for the excitement of serving God, the way we did in YFC. But I have to admit, that time has passed. Its time for new brave young hearts to carry that torch and lead others to Him. Also, I have greater responsibilities now to attend to. They must be put in place first. God already gave me that chance, so why would I worry.

Any way, right now I am preparing for some greater heights and responsibilities. Hopefully I can still make it with my previous responsibilities, I mean I could still do those other responsibilities while moving on. [If this line looks cryptic, then it means you might not need to know now, it also means just wait…] Hopefully God would give me enough blessings to go through.

I might need to move on now. See you a few hundred steps from here…

i finally found it…

I finally found it… yipee… (I wanted to find a file that really comes from the NCC site)

http://www.ncc.gov.ph/files/ictprofpassers-nov13_04.pdf

Here is an alternative HTML version of the PDF file:

http://www.google.com/search?q=cache:XHziQTO4l1sJ:www.ncc.gov.ph/files/passers_nov13-1404.pdf+ace+mark+gella&hl=en&gl=ph&ct=clnk&cd=6

This proficiency exam is conducted in coordination with the Civil Service Commission (CSC) twice every year.  According to the NCC website, " NCC will issue a Certificate of Proficiency to successful examinees, which will be the basis for granting appropriate ICT (EDP) Specialist eligibility by CSC. Once granted, the eligibility shall continue to be in force (Batas Pambansa Blg. 225).
The grant of eligibility on these fields arises from the need to have qualified ICT manpower in the government to implement its Information Systems Plans…"

The exam is a whole day exam, the first part of the test is a written exam for two hours. The next 6 hours is a hands-on exam, using the programming language that he had specified on his application form. The examinees will be given a problem which they must solve for the next 6 hours.

The exam was really mind - wearing, since there were questions that we never got in touch with. There are also some confusing questions with it.

The hands-on exam took every bit of knowledge from us. It was really tiring, to a point that we weren't able to eat right. (But I bet it's not that fun to know how it was, any way… )

I got a hold of this while searching the internet with my someone. Well, I guess blessings do come your way when you are with your someone. Right now I might just want to try out PhilNITS/JITSE…

…dont give up…

…this is what has happened this past few clock ticks (not to mention the past few brainwave movements)…

thank God!!!!

just when i had already given up…

I thought things are not going my way. just last night I had this feeling of giving up. I even thought of just leaving Cebu and going back home. [why cant I just go home? there are less opportunities for us IT people there, and most outsourcing/programming development company would go for experienced and established names in the IT industry(that's what I think)..] the feeling is really terrible, and to think that I failed everyone's expectations (especially my mom…). well, it was really terrible.

This morning after i had to prepare for my new set of job-hunting 'adventures', despite of the fact that I wanted to just sleep all day. I nearly cried thinking about how I had failed to continue my previous work.

Then miracles prove to exist. while we (me and a friend of mine) were on our way to Ayala Center Cebu, one of my prospective employers called asking me if I can start on Monday!!! it was really relieving!! Just when I had given up on everything and thought that i would have a harder time looking for a job, then miracles call you up to make a smile shine bright.

…Wowowee???….

…this is what has happened this past few clock ticks (not to mention the past few brainwave movements)… i might add these are [serious] words from an observing individual…

If you havent heard the latest about the things that happened last Saturday, guess you better read this first… if you do already know, then i guess this is where we start our sentiments and thoughts… First things first: why did people chose to jam-pack ULTRA instead of just sitting in the comfort of their homes to watch the show ‘Wowowee’???

I believe it isnt only because they are [they say] the best show in their timeslot, or it isnt only because of the popularity of the show among Filipino households.Though I know these two reasons exist, but these reasons arent the main reasons people [mainly housewives] are pulled off from the comfortable [and safe] homes to the hot streets of Metro Manila just waiting for this show to start.

I believe what really pulled these people to bet their hopes [and lives] on this show is their financial status in life. To simply put it - they are the poorest of the poor in the society, and the promise of the million-peso price [not to mention the house and lot and the car, as what I had heard] must have sparked the hopes and dreams of these people, and rather than do nothing but wait for luck to rain, they opted to battle all odds to get these prizes. Well, for a simple Filipino, doing this is just better than waiting on something good to pour down. I mean, to think that there still isnt enough jobs to erase at least half of the jobless Filipinos in the country, people would really take time to bet. The continuing lottery operations would be a good example for Filipinos’ betting habits. And in this case, they also chose to bet [almost] everything on this show. At least they did something to change their lives.

Things would have been better… but no one expected this. Really. Not even ABS-CBN or Willie Revillame thought things would go wrong. And even if other noontime shows zoomed up in ratings because of this incident and the show’s cancellation, they would be hypocrites not say prayers for the victims of the tragedy. Even if we investigate who should be blamed for this, the people whom they would point fingers at would just be the intermediate cause of the event. In the first place, why do these people bet their hopes on something and were eventually left lying breathless on the streets??

We cannot deny it. We are still on the quicksands of poverty, eaten alive by the consuming fires of the society’s financial instability. It hurts to know that there are those who tried to get out of it, but end up with their lives lost. I could even cry at the sight of a child who was trying to wake up his dead mother.

But I do know the president is doing her best to cope up with this certain timeless dilemma. Everyone [who believes her] can see that. Maybe it is about time for others to stop blaming her and start helping her. At least people dont have to be divided again, and incidents like this would have been contained, if not stopped.

::IS:: ..creating the InstallShield DevStudio 9 manual..

this is what has happened this past few clock ticks (not to mention the past few brainwaves movements…)

finally i have finished the 'user manual' on how to create a Basic MSI installer project for our previous project. *sigh* sometimes thinking about it makes me feel bad about myself… why??? how would i know????

let me count the times when i had to stop for a while… let me think… hmmm….
i cant count them hard enough…. very bad… well, at least i know i am still alive…

any way, let me sleep… i still need to resign tomorrow…. *sigh*

[if you have questions regarding InstallShield DevStudio9, just leave me a message. I'd be glad to help…]

…out of work…